Admittedly it has been a while since I’ve posted anything. I’d like to blame it on being busy and working too much, but frankly, its been no different from the last few months. Its partly out of laziness, but that laziness is fueled by discouragement and a bit of burn out.
I’m not giving up, I can’t give up. But no one ever said that entrepreneurship was always sunshine and roses, its not. Lately, I have been feeling like I’ll never make it. Obviously, a defeatist attitude will ensure that prediction comes true, but its more so feeling in a slump.
I feel like I am working too hard, giving too much energy, to things that stress me out and drain my joy, leaving me with no motivation to work towards my goals. And I feel like I’m working too hard at too many things, only have the quality of all of them suffer. I am feeling self doubt in a time that I need to believe in myself more than ever. I feel like the only way to find happiness to continue pursuing my dream, yet I don’t have it in me at the end of the day to research, brainstorm, study, or blog about dance, something that has always rejuvenated my spirit.
In a time where everything I do feels like work, beyond the everyday world of being a responsible adult, I am taking some pressure off myself for the time being. I am going to take the pressure off myself to post weekly, or even bi-weekly, and merely post when I have something worth sharing. Take some time to rediscover dance as a stress reliever and my dream as something to motivate me in a positive way and not just as another chore (although one that will help my current stress levels). I will be back to posting when it feels less like a responsibility, and more like something to look forward to.
My community dance classes have been going well since I last updated you on day one. I consistently have about 6 kids in my younger class and I have had a least one person in my Thursday class (these kids are a little older) every week. Attendance is down this week, likely due to the holiday. Unfortunately, my adult fitness class has yet to have any students, but I knew that one was a bit iffy from the beginning.
The place mats that I used the first class to mark kids’ spots have continued to be of great help each week. Everyone gets a green dot in our warm up circle, everyone knows where to sit and wait their turn when we go across the floor, and spaced out in a line they make great props to leap over or stop and practice poses. Those green dots are like a teacher’s aid really.
Unfortunately, they have one major flaw. They slide all over the place. I didn’t notice it the first class because we danced on a wooden deck outside, but once we got on the laminate floor the next week, these pace mats would not stay still. While out running errands today, I looked for a replacement spot for each child in the way of a rubber bottom mat, but was not able to find any.
So, I got creative. I decided that as I had already re-purposed the place mats for dance class, I would no longer use them on a table as intended. They were leftover from our wedding decorations, so it was something I had on hand already. Today, I spent a few bucks on non slip shelf liner and glued a square of it to the back of each place mat. Voila. A non slip mat that will continue to be useful for as long as I teach classes in this setting.
The Before and After.
While I was unable to fully test them tonight- no attendance today, sadly- I did try them out on my kitchen floor and briefly in the neighborhood clubhouse where I teach. They stayed put!
It was such a small little project to complete, but I feel like it represents the entrepreneurial spirit of finding a solution to a problem with limited resources. I know that in the future as my studio comes together, there will be many more of these moments. As Tim Gunn from Project Runway would say about most problems, “Make it work”.